Self-Amused?

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Is it wrong that I amuse myself? Am I to much in my head? Sometimes I wonder.

I mean, it can't be a good thing that sometimes I'm not sure if I've spoken out loud or simply thought something. And believe me, that happens a lot. And it's NOT amusing when one isn't sure whether you've said something insanely scathing within the hearing range of the person said scathing thoughts/words were spoken near.

However, on the other hand... It does provide me with a constant reel of things I did/said/wrote that I found amusing. That can't be bad. In fact it could be said to be a tad narcissistic, but it's really not! I'm just used to amusing myself!

...And apparently it's gotten a bit extreme...

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Bah. I've come to accept my insanity. In fact, if ever I completely realize all of the facets of said insanity I'll write a book. It'll be titled "Dissecting my Crazy." Book reviewers may call it a self-indulging waste of trees. However, with out a doubt it will have a few lovers. After all, there's got to be others in the same boat. High functioning crazy people just trying to figure out exactly how crazy they are. And the book would be amusing. So maybe it wouldn't be immediately written off. After all, everyone likes to read about how crazy other people are. It gives them a sense of security. Relief. It gives them the ability to say, "Oh thank heavens, at least I'm not that bad"

In a way, I'd be doing a public service while providing a wee bit of humor into my self-depreciation. I would be the example to hold up. I would stand there as an example that, yes. Crazy is the new sub-genre of normal. It's ok. I'll walk you through this.... You know, when I'm not being distracted by my own insanity.

Actually, I think when ever I do write and publish "Dissecting my Crazy." I'll add a small blank journal to the back. Or have it sold with a separate journal. The title of course would be, "Dissecting YOUR Crazy." The sub-title will of course be, "Acceptance is the first step to Infinity." The sub-title of course will be confusing to non-crazy people. However, knowing you're crazy doesn't change your crazy. It just means that you acknowledge it and plan on playing it off as a quirk.

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Really... the original point of this post was to see if being amused by things I've done in the past made me odd...

Deus. Maybe I should just stick to blogging

Dystopia

Interesting day.

Like always it started with a massive cup of coffee. Unlike always... that cup of ambrosia led to a very painful stomach ache... Oh well. No pain, No gain.

However, despite my body deciding it would rather drink anything but coffee... I went to class today. Which, is quite the accomplishment even if the only reason I went was to drop of Homework that I've had for two weeks... And did last night.

I even managed to catch the bus to the post office so I could mail off my Secret Santa gift... 4 days to late.

Really it's becoming increasingly obvious that I've got a serious problem with procrastination. What's more, all of my best ideas come to me when I have no desire to write them down. Much in the same way some people's best ideas only come to them while high. If you think about it, we probably could have solved most of the worlds problems by now if we simply recorded our best ideas the minute they happened.

If nothing else... I'd have finished at least one book by now.

Oh well. It'll happen. Eventually.